[Ah. So they'd had to share memories among the living, too. That's horrific. But if it helped him speak through thinga, then...
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...I did for a few years, yeah. We weren't reunited until a couple of years ago, under some pretty tense circumstances. [Normally he'd stop here. But he flicks his eyes to Dimitri, then back to the counter.] Hasn't changed as much as I'd hoped. I haven't had the time to say what I felt I should have by him. Part of him probably still believes I want him dead, and it's been years since he...
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Mm. Anyway. The fact that he's trying... that's an immense step forward for him. I know that might sound pretty wild, but I had my doubts if he would ever be able to change. Life had just beaten him so thoroughly that he'd lost sight of himself.
I'd hoped that he'd come around a little, now that he has the chance. I'd figured something had clicked, just from what I could see. But...
[His expression is an odd one, warm but almost... regretful.]
It's good to hear he's letting himself be someone again, without a damn curse getting involved.
[ He knew they were related somehow, but wanting him dead is not exactly what he expected.
Still, there's obviously something more complicated there. ]
The curse was... unfortunate.
[ He sounds a little exasperated at that. ]
But I understand—it can be difficult to continue after such devastating loss. It's not so surprising to me that he'd end up this way. [ After the Tragedy, Dimitri is well aware of how easy it is to lose one's grip on life. He processed his grief differently, but he'd recognized that same trauma in Asch. ] But I think he's genuinely making an effort, even if there were missteps along that path.
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If you knew him from before, I would be proud of his progress. He is a treasured friend, not just to me, but many others.
[His nod is shallow, as though he just barely agrees.]
Agreed. It's not unfamiliar to me, either, so I feel we could have more to talk about, had life been different. I'm impressed by the change I've seen over the screens. But I can't say we were ever friends until recently, Your Highness. Even that is kind of pushing it.
[Siri, mark him as It's Complicated on Facebook.]
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Did he explain to you what happened when he was a kid?
[ They've spent enough time together that the memory share hit pretty hard. It brought them closer together, but it wasn't an easy experience; Dimitri's gaze softens a little. ]
You were in the background of some of his memories, but I never pressed him about it.
I don't think he would have answered, even if you had, so that was a smart choice. The active role I had in his life was pretty short, and mostly when we were children.
I just can't share those details of his past for him. I gave him my word on that the first day we were on the bus.
[So to hear Dimitri was aware, even with dubious consent, at least gives him enough wiggle room to keep talking.]
I came to work for his father's estate when Asch was only three or so. I was his personal manservant - meant to be a companion as a child and more involved as a retainer as he matured. He was the tertiary heir to the throne of Kimlasca and the only child of his family, so to have a servant entirely devoted to him was only logical.
[ It reminds him more of the Empire, with Edelgard and Hubert, but Dimitri's familiar enough with royal trappings to understand this sort of set-up. ]
That makes sense, yes.
[ It also makes sense that a retainer may not consider himself a 'friend.' It makes less sense that Guy may have harbored some secret resentment towards him. ]
Were the two of you still not very close, then...?
For appearances, yeah. But the reality wasn't as nice as Asch had assumed, anyway. I think he'd gone most of his childhood thinking we were much closer friends than we really were, and for good reason.
[Man why did he put the liquor away, talking abou Asch like this just makes him tense. Grumbles. Oh well.]
I think Van might have told him the truth at some point, or some variety of it. So I can't blame him for feeling uneasy around me. It's another loss on a large list for him, and one that not's even on him entirely.
It's not really his fault I spent that whole time planning to kill him.
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...I did for a few years, yeah. We weren't reunited until a couple of years ago, under some pretty tense circumstances. [Normally he'd stop here. But he flicks his eyes to Dimitri, then back to the counter.] Hasn't changed as much as I'd hoped. I haven't had the time to say what I felt I should have by him. Part of him probably still believes I want him dead, and it's been years since he...
...
Mm. Anyway. The fact that he's trying... that's an immense step forward for him. I know that might sound pretty wild, but I had my doubts if he would ever be able to change. Life had just beaten him so thoroughly that he'd lost sight of himself.
I'd hoped that he'd come around a little, now that he has the chance. I'd figured something had clicked, just from what I could see. But...
[His expression is an odd one, warm but almost... regretful.]
It's good to hear he's letting himself be someone again, without a damn curse getting involved.
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Still, there's obviously something more complicated there. ]
The curse was... unfortunate.
[ He sounds a little exasperated at that. ]
But I understand—it can be difficult to continue after such devastating loss. It's not so surprising to me that he'd end up this way. [ After the Tragedy, Dimitri is well aware of how easy it is to lose one's grip on life. He processed his grief differently, but he'd recognized that same trauma in Asch. ] But I think he's genuinely making an effort, even if there were missteps along that path.
[ ... ]
If you knew him from before, I would be proud of his progress. He is a treasured friend, not just to me, but many others.
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Agreed. It's not unfamiliar to me, either, so I feel we could have more to talk about, had life been different. I'm impressed by the change I've seen over the screens. But I can't say we were ever friends until recently, Your Highness. Even that is kind of pushing it.
[Siri, mark him as It's Complicated on Facebook.]
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Did he explain to you what happened when he was a kid?
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[ They've spent enough time together that the memory share hit pretty hard. It brought them closer together, but it wasn't an easy experience; Dimitri's gaze softens a little. ]
You were in the background of some of his memories, but I never pressed him about it.
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I don't think he would have answered, even if you had, so that was a smart choice. The active role I had in his life was pretty short, and mostly when we were children.
I just can't share those details of his past for him. I gave him my word on that the first day we were on the bus.
[So to hear Dimitri was aware, even with dubious consent, at least gives him enough wiggle room to keep talking.]
I came to work for his father's estate when Asch was only three or so. I was his personal manservant - meant to be a companion as a child and more involved as a retainer as he matured. He was the tertiary heir to the throne of Kimlasca and the only child of his family, so to have a servant entirely devoted to him was only logical.
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That makes sense, yes.
[ It also makes sense that a retainer may not consider himself a 'friend.' It makes less sense that Guy may have harbored some secret resentment towards him. ]
Were the two of you still not very close, then...?
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[Man why did he put the liquor away, talking abou Asch like this just makes him tense. Grumbles. Oh well.]
I think Van might have told him the truth at some point, or some variety of it. So I can't blame him for feeling uneasy around me. It's another loss on a large list for him, and one that not's even on him entirely.
It's not really his fault I spent that whole time planning to kill him.