[He didn't have much reason to, after all that happened. Guy won't fight him on that.]
What I don't know is what you plan to do with that information now that we're stuck together. I don't think you're stupid enough to keep it to yourself. But I'm not going to stop you if you decide to tell people I'm a threat.
I don't take you for anything, Yu, except maybe a kid who cares just a little too much sometimes for people who don't deserve it. Between you and Majima, I don't expect to be able to get away with anything, even if I wanted to. So I know where I stand. It's your choice whether you have to get involved in what happens to me.
So don't go implying you won't risk my life in the same breath as your distrust. If you don't want the weight of my fate on your conscience, then fine. But all you're really telling me is that, if something does happen, you'll be just as torn as you were with Sasuke.
Make up your mind, before someone else does it for you.
[ Yu is on his feet in a flash, and before Guy can blink he’ll find Yu’s hands curled in his collar. The only reason Yu hasn’t slammed the other man into the wall is that the scuffle would draw attention.
But he leans in close, and quiet, and there is a snarl on his face. ]
Shut up. You have no right to lecture me. Who the hell do you think you are? You’re the one with blood on your hands, innocent blood, and you think you can criticize me? Just shut up.
[ Yu abruptly lets him go, his jaw right, his eyes alight with fury. ]
I won’t risk your life, but that doesn’t mean I have to trust you, and you don’t get to call me a hypocrite for doing it.
Luke wouldn’t ever forgive me if I let something happen to you. [ coldly. ] If I help you, it’s for his sake. Not yours. I know where I stand.
[There's resistance as Yu's fingers tighten against his shirt, Guy bracing himself at the shift in weight, his own hands pushing forward to keep Yu from going any farther. That the boy doesn't punch him is an honest surprise, but Guy keeps his face even. It's only his voice that dips with disapproval.]
I'm not calling you a hypocrite, you idiot.
Just don't do something stupid. I did what I did, and I took several lives of people you cared about because of a selfish wish.
But like hell I want to see anything happen to you because of that.
He stares down at that mixed look, the switch in posture so vibrant that for a moment, it feels like he's looking at Luke, vividly angry one second and torn down by crippling guilt the next.
...
His approach is slow, crouching down in front of Yu with his arms against his knees, fingers intertwined. It might be a more intimate moment, were they not at odds with one another. As it stands, it's just to make sure he can keep his tone low in volume... and surprisingly soft in tone.]
I meant what I said. I don't expect you to trust me again. Not in the way you tried to do before I broke your view of me into pieces.
If you can't do that in any good faith... then at least trust the fact that I'm not about to let myself die without a fight. I have the blood of three lives on my hands, of three wishes that never got to be granted. So if I don't try, with every last breath, to get through this... then what kind of person does that make me? What does that say about their worth, or how willing I might be to redeem myself?
...
I'm not about to do anything stupid. We need to get as many people out of here as possible, and that means actually working together this time. But I'm going to defend myself if I'm in danger.
[ Again Yu stares at him, but now his brow knits, his emotions open on his face. Uncertainty, a great deal of internal conflict, a certain kind of sympathy. He'll frown when Guy emphasizes three lives, murmuring: ]
Of course.
[ to himself, but not otherwise interrupting.
Again there's a gap of silence, but this one isn't so cold, so uncaring. Yu rubs his face. ]
Good. [ roughly. ] Good. Little you might believe me, but I don't want anything to happen to you. Not just for their sake, and not just for Luke's sake.
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I can’t trust you, Guy. You must know that.
wails happily
[He didn't have much reason to, after all that happened. Guy won't fight him on that.]
What I don't know is what you plan to do with that information now that we're stuck together. I don't think you're stupid enough to keep it to yourself. But I'm not going to stop you if you decide to tell people I'm a threat.
:3
And if I don’t keep it to myself, I put your life at risk. What do you take me for, anyway?
[ bitterly. ]
All I want is to keep an eye on you. That part won’t be negotiable, Guy. ... everything else we can figure out.
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So just business as usual, then.
I don't take you for anything, Yu, except maybe a kid who cares just a little too much sometimes for people who don't deserve it. Between you and Majima, I don't expect to be able to get away with anything, even if I wanted to. So I know where I stand. It's your choice whether you have to get involved in what happens to me.
So don't go implying you won't risk my life in the same breath as your distrust. If you don't want the weight of my fate on your conscience, then fine. But all you're really telling me is that, if something does happen, you'll be just as torn as you were with Sasuke.
Make up your mind, before someone else does it for you.
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But he leans in close, and quiet, and there is a snarl on his face. ]
Shut up. You have no right to lecture me. Who the hell do you think you are? You’re the one with blood on your hands, innocent blood, and you think you can criticize me? Just shut up.
[ Yu abruptly lets him go, his jaw right, his eyes alight with fury. ]
I won’t risk your life, but that doesn’t mean I have to trust you, and you don’t get to call me a hypocrite for doing it.
Luke wouldn’t ever forgive me if I let something happen to you. [ coldly. ] If I help you, it’s for his sake. Not yours. I know where I stand.
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I'm not calling you a hypocrite, you idiot.
Just don't do something stupid. I did what I did, and I took several lives of people you cared about because of a selfish wish.
But like hell I want to see anything happen to you because of that.
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Just staring at him, blankly.
Like a puppet with its strings cut he’ll fall back into his chair, but not before a tortured look flashes across his features, there and gone. ]
... I’ll be fine, Guy. Take care of yourself and don’t hatch any stupid plans and we won’t have any problems.
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He stares down at that mixed look, the switch in posture so vibrant that for a moment, it feels like he's looking at Luke, vividly angry one second and torn down by crippling guilt the next.
...
His approach is slow, crouching down in front of Yu with his arms against his knees, fingers intertwined. It might be a more intimate moment, were they not at odds with one another. As it stands, it's just to make sure he can keep his tone low in volume... and surprisingly soft in tone.]
I meant what I said. I don't expect you to trust me again. Not in the way you tried to do before I broke your view of me into pieces.
If you can't do that in any good faith... then at least trust the fact that I'm not about to let myself die without a fight. I have the blood of three lives on my hands, of three wishes that never got to be granted. So if I don't try, with every last breath, to get through this... then what kind of person does that make me? What does that say about their worth, or how willing I might be to redeem myself?
...
I'm not about to do anything stupid. We need to get as many people out of here as possible, and that means actually working together this time. But I'm going to defend myself if I'm in danger.
I have to.
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Of course.
[ to himself, but not otherwise interrupting.
Again there's a gap of silence, but this one isn't so cold, so uncaring. Yu rubs his face. ]
Good. [ roughly. ] Good. Little you might believe me, but I don't want anything to happen to you. Not just for their sake, and not just for Luke's sake.