[He stays quiet, expression tightening up until Yin Yu mentions that the position was taken from him. Not reassigned, or given away. Taken.
With how Yin Yu clearly seems to have put effort into acheiving such a role, despite how well he feels he may have belonged, the idea that that could just be robbed due to natural talent is a punch to the gut.]
That shouldn't matter. That role was yours - you earned it. Who in the world would push you out of something like that?
[How much of an insect did they consider Yin Yu to shove him aside so easily?]
It wasn't his fault. [ yin yu says, quietly. the guilt is like an iron weight resting his shoulders, pushing them down even further. this is the deepest depth of yin yu's regrets. his troubles. all of them come down to one person, and that one person wasn't even aware something was wrong until it was too late.
for a moment, that's all he really has to say. yin yu has to tread carefully: he has always been very careful with his words, and this is no exception. the wrong thing can drag him downwards into a spiral of regret and bitter anger that he wants to try and avoid. that he always wanted to avoid. i don't want to fight, he had said to jian yu. no one would let him accept himself for the failure that he was until it was too late.
eventually, though, he takes a deep breath, and lets a little more of that shadow unstick itself from his heart. ] ...the current martial god of the West was my shidi - a disciple who studied under me in our sect. I was the one who brought him into the sect off of the streets, and I chose him to ascend as a middle official in my court, too.
[ this tale just gets more and more tragic. in this case, the student didn't just surpass the teacher in old age; the student was better than the teacher from the start. ]
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With how Yin Yu clearly seems to have put effort into acheiving such a role, despite how well he feels he may have belonged, the idea that that could just be robbed due to natural talent is a punch to the gut.]
That shouldn't matter. That role was yours - you earned it. Who in the world would push you out of something like that?
[How much of an insect did they consider Yin Yu to shove him aside so easily?]
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It wasn't his fault. [ yin yu says, quietly. the guilt is like an iron weight resting his shoulders, pushing them down even further. this is the deepest depth of yin yu's regrets. his troubles. all of them come down to one person, and that one person wasn't even aware something was wrong until it was too late.
for a moment, that's all he really has to say. yin yu has to tread carefully: he has always been very careful with his words, and this is no exception. the wrong thing can drag him downwards into a spiral of regret and bitter anger that he wants to try and avoid. that he always wanted to avoid. i don't want to fight, he had said to jian yu. no one would let him accept himself for the failure that he was until it was too late.
eventually, though, he takes a deep breath, and lets a little more of that shadow unstick itself from his heart. ] ...the current martial god of the West was my shidi - a disciple who studied under me in our sect. I was the one who brought him into the sect off of the streets, and I chose him to ascend as a middle official in my court, too.
[ this tale just gets more and more tragic. in this case, the student didn't just surpass the teacher in old age; the student was better than the teacher from the start. ]